I was there,
lying on my bed, trying to fall asleep for more than an hour when it hit me -
we're pretty much alone, everyone else is just a tourist in our lives. Some
decide so stay longer and extend their holiday, but will be leaving sooner or
later. Even if they are family, friends, enemies, lovers, postmen or strippers,
their staying time is proportional with the time you spend together and as
that period shortens, they become foreigners. It's weird how you get to know
someone, you develop some kind of a relationship and bond with them, but as
soon as you stop seeing/talking to each other it's like they haven't even
existed, it's like you're strangers that never knew each other, you forget how
it feels to know them. And it's nobody's fault. I'm not talking about one's
inability of keeping in touch, but there’s something in the human nature of
being selfish and protective over their genetic material that puts solitude and self-preservation above anything else.
I can't even remember how
many people I've met so far, how many I've actually talked and became friends with,
but the fact that we weren't able to meet too often anymore erased our memories
so much that if we randomly make eye contact again, we have no idea who the
person before our eyes is (figuratively) and we act as awkward as we usually do
near strangers. I don't blame them, obviously, we crossed paths for a reason
most likely, but we're just passing by in each others lives, nothing more.
Family is no different, we
just have an extra incentive to stick around longer - the sense of obligation.
Think about not seeing one of your siblings for five years, no talking either.
Do you think you'll care as much that you're related and would be able to put
them above your best friends right away? Probably not. The thing is, we don't
like to get attached for too long and if we do, it's probably for different
reasons. People come and go, we forget them and move on.
Aloha, Spring is here. And
during this period of time, there is a pattern of situations that seem to occur every year:
-an increasing need of affection (with the exhausting
feeling when you're facing the lack of it)
-flowers, flowers and flowers again
-women that need to receive those flowers or you'll
sleep on the couch
-Spring fever
-pretty pastels
-body odor
-screaming kids (one may even call it happiness)
-Spring cleaning (everyone says that on Facebook, but
we all know it's bs)
-a shitstorm of feelings, cuz bears, bees and your
senses are waking up
-zero productivity due to nice weather
-more skin showing
-more whistles on the streets because of said skin
-couples, couples everywhere
-parks and recreation (not the TV series)
-a new season of Game of Thrones
-an invasion of pics on every social media
-birds flying high, you know how I feel
-transitioning weather, mood and cash flow
-the disappointment that the season is over too early
and you haven't been to the gym yet
Nonetheless, Spring is one
of my favourite seasons (along with the other 3 that I'm lucky enough to
experience every year) and it turns my morning coffee on the balcony routine
into a really enjoyable experience.
-I don't like it when my guts
tell me I should talk to somebody and I don't. That moment when you see someone
and you know you should say something, but you cannot think of any good excuse
and they probably feel the same way, but you just end up passing by
each other thinking: Hey, I met someone today. I don't know their name
and I didn't say a word, but they seemed nice.
-I don't like windy days. My
hair is usually styled in a certain way(even when it doesn't look like it)
and/or I'm wearing a skirt/dress. Having something you cannot control messing
with that is no fun.
-I don't like bars, especially
ordering from a bar. In fact, it's my least favourite thing to do when I go
out. I would rather not have a drink sometimes, instead of speaking the sign
language with the bartender. Then there's always this weird guy in his
forties who tries to hit on you while you wait.
-I don't like songs that I used
to listen to, until they became really popular and annoying and everywhere.
-I don't like being sleepy all
day because I couldn't stop making impossible scenarios in my head in the
middle of the night.
Zero 7 | Don't Call It Love
Young the Giant | It's About Time
