Now that I’ve officially finished school (bachelor’s
degree and all alike) I’m left with a few spare days until I become a fully
entitled grown-up and start my full-time job as a bloody programmer. I actually
feel like I’m in-between lives – one that I’ve left behind and one that
I’m moving straight towards. And it’s scary as shit! Like scary level over 9000
kind of shit.
Since I’ve run out of any stress battery and I can’t
afford a new one physically and mentally, I'm gonna become zen for the next 3-4
days. I’m not talking about any insight into the Buddha Principle or emerging
into a deeply life changing meditative state (although I think I might need
that), but more about being relaxed and peaceful and basically giving #nofux.
Today
was the first day I’ve done that and it wasn't bad at all. Walking down the
streets of sunny Bucharest in the middle of the day, on a Wednesday, never felt
so relieving. Watching hasty people pass by, while having no worries it’s
clearly liberating and no big effort is needed to feel that way. Knowing that I
could do whatever I wanted just because I had the time was a bit pressuring,
but brought a new perspective into my life – enjoy the time you have.
I didn't change the world today, but I’ve changed my
world and that’s something. I mostly enjoyed having the time to dream about
everything and anything, to be connected with my thoughts again, to see how the
Earth is spinning and not miss out on that.. I sense that life is running
through my veins and I couldn't be happier! Through that, I’ve been able to
understand how different success and happiness can be, how one is not
necessarily determined by the other and while one makes you feel like you can
conquer the world, the other makes you feel like you are a part of it.
